**Diary Entry**
I never loved my wife, and I told her so many times. It wasnt her faultwe got on well enough. She never made a scene or held it against me; she was always kind and caring. But the problem remainedthere was no love.
Every morning, I woke up wanting to leave. I dreamed of finding a woman I could truly love. Yet, I couldnt imagine how fate might turn everything upside down.
With Sophie, I was comfortable. She kept the house immaculate and looked stunning. My friends envied me, baffled at how Id landed such a lucky match.
Even I didnt understand why she loved me. Im an ordinary bloke, nothing special. And yet, she did How?
Her devotion unsettled me. The thought of leaving gnawed at me even moresomeone else would take my place. Someone richer, handsomer, more successful.
The idea of her with another man drove me mad. She was mine, even if I didnt love her. That possessiveness outweighed reason. But could I spend a lifetime with someone I didnt love? I thought I could, but I was wrong.
*Tomorrow, Ill tell her everything*, I decided before bed. Over breakfast, I mustered the courage.
“Sophie, sit down. We need to talk.”
“Of course, love. What is it?”
“Imagine we divorce. I leave, we live apart”
Sophie laughed. “Whats got into you? Are we playing a game?”
“Listen. Im serious.”
“Fine, Im imagining it. What next?”
“Be honestwould you find someone else if I left?”
“Matthew, whats wrong? Why are you even thinking of leaving?”
“Because I dont love you. I never have.”
“What? Youre joking. I dont understand.”
“I want to go, but I cant. The thought of you with someone else it torments me.”
Sophie was quiet for a moment, then replied calmly, “I wont find anyone better than you, so dont worry. GoI wont be with anyone else.”
“Promise?”
“Of course,” she reassured me.
“Wait but where would I go?”
“Youve nowhere to go?”
“No. Weve spent our whole lives together. I suppose Id have to stay close,” I said glumly.
“Dont fret,” Sophie replied. “After the divorce, well swap the house for two smaller flats.”
“Really? I didnt expect you to help me like this. Why would you?”
“Because I love you. When you love someone, you dont cage them.”
Months passed, and we divorced. Soon, I learned Sophie hadnt kept her promise. She found another man, and the flat she inherited from her grandmother? She never intended to share it. I was left with nothing.
How can I trust women now? Ive no idea.
What do you make of Matthews behaviour?
